December 2009

  • I don’t know why I’m writing this. It’s been almost 2 years. 
  • Taking a look back at that night, I realized I never really hated you. At some point I also wish there was something there.
  • It felt pathetic because I was the one carrying our conversation
  • Even so, I still liked talking to you. 
  • The way we talked across the table, people thought we were having our own world conversation but in truth I was coaching you with her
  • I somehow liked what those people thought
  • I wasn’t totally coaching you with her…
  • That night I had no ride home, you offered your ride, I said no because I thought others were going with you too  (which they didn’t) and because you’re still gonna have dinner with your family. 
  • I wished I had said yes
  • I wished I didn’t look totally panicked
  • that was the last time we ever hung out and I hoped there was still more
  •  even if I hate you now, I still wished that I became closer to you. 
  • We texted before and after your trainnings
  • You were the first one to greet me during my birthday back then 

#random  #personal  
3 months ago on November 29, 2011 at 09:09am
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